Weight loss is super easy...NOT

Hello, blog world! I've been away for some time now...and I'm back. For good!

Maybe.

The crappy part about this process is knowing that I've really wanted to lose weight since January of 2009 - and here we are, June 2010, and I'm just a few pounds under where I was in 2009. Ummm, that's a lot of wasted time! I could be at goal weight right now!

That sounds amazing.

I wish I could snap my fingers. I know this isn't easy. However, it's certainly not as hard as I convince myself it is sometimes. Other times, it's really just freakin HARD.

So, blah!

That's all I got.

I weighed myself last week, thinking I need to face the damage, and I was at 229 lbs. That's actually not too horrible, so I've been fluctuating from 224 to 230 for the last year or so.

Saturday's are my weigh-in, but I didn't feel good, so I waited until this morning to weigh in. That stomach bug was on my side yesterday - totally looking for the silver lining!

Today, I'm down to 225 lbs.

This week I'm going to work on some basic things. I'm going to take some small steps.

School is done for my kid for the summer. The softball team I coach is done for the season. I have time to focus on me.

So, here we go.

Again.

Blah!

Day 7 - No words.

Say it with me....CRAP.

Weight loss is HARD.

I want to go to sleep and wake up 75 lbs lighter.

Why can't I?

UGH.

All crap, yesterday was, all crap.

Crap, crap, crap, crap, crap.

I know I want this, but why can't I just push myself and do it?? Hmmm?

New Year, New Me!

As of one year a go today, I weighed 231 lbs. I had grand ideas and visions of how AMAZING I was going to look by Christmas!

Well.

Christmas has come and gone. It's now one year later. I'm at 227 lbs.

Well, okay, let's look at the positives! I'm down 3 lbs! THAT'S good! I weigh less this year than I did last year. That means a new decade is starting and I haven't seen the 230s!

Ick, that's about as far as I can go with the positivity.

The fact of the matter is that I wasted yet another YEAR. A whole YEAR! That's not just a day, a week, a month...a freakin YEAR of my LIFE. Gone. With no progress made!

Granted, my family had a rough year. Medical issues up the wazoo (gluten intolerance discoveries, emergency surgeries, tons 'o fun!), moving THREE TIMES (once in beyond imaginable emotional conditions, once 1400 miles across the country), and loads of random events sprinkled in between.

Excuses, excuses.

Enough feeling sorry for myself or letting life dictate my actions. Just because things are tense or I'm stressed, those aren't good reasons to NOT exercise or NOT drink water or NOT eat right. In fact, those are just the reasons to push through and exercise and drink water and eat right!

So, I bid adieu to 2009. Peace out, homeslice.

2010 is here, and this time, I am actually going to freakin do it!

Days 8 & 9 - Go me...not

Ummmmm...

Yeah.

If I could pretend these two days did not exist, I might just do that. I've done nothing. I realized this afternoon that I hadn't even had any water today at all. Way to make this a priority, right?

I'm a little embarrassed, to be honest. I hate that I did squat and have wasted another two days of my life.

So.

Gotta move on, right?

Gotta make the commitment, right?

RIGHT!

After all, my dear, tomorrow is another day...

...blah.

Day 6 - Off the Saddle, Ugh

I had a crappy day yesterday. It wasn't just me, it was my kiddos, too. Everyone was grouchy and cranky and nobody wanted to do anything. We sat in our pj's for most of the day, watching movies, snacking, just laying around. Lots of fighting between the kids, lots of refereeing by yours truly. Tons of fun!!

...not.

So I really have nothing to report, just that it was a day of nothing as far as weight loss goes, but I couldn't help it. I didn't want to do anything.

I'm happy to report today is already off to a better start, so that's something!

Crappy days happen. I can't fight that. I'm just glad this one is now in the past. The kids were great this morning. I'm hoping that pattern continues, but you just never can tell with these people...

First Post!

My first post! About time I get the motivation to get down to business, right?

There have been a few motivating factors lately.

I was reading a blog yesterday about the nicest woman, she's pregnant, she measured herself and found out she was 48 inches around her belly, and she was shocked and appalled. So was I, momentarily, until I realized that I had just measured my own non-baby-filled stomach and it measured in at a whopping 50 inches. Well, crap!

Last night I watched a tear-jerker of a movie. I lay on the couch, sobbing away. My daughter wakes up and comes to cuddle with me, I let her so I don't have to pause the movie, and I realize the combination of the sobs and her weight on my chest, I couldn't breathe. Come ON. I felt ridiculous!

Then there is my wedding pictures. That's all I need to say about that one...

So now is the time. Why wait any longer? I want more babies, I want to enjoy my life now, I want to keep up with my kids, I want to be the super hot mom.

Soooo here I go! It ain't gunna be pretty, folks, but it'll be real and honest and hopefully I come out the other end looking and feeling smokin' hot!