WHAT?!?

Has it been another month?

Goodness.

Tomorrow morning, weigh-in and goals.

Off we go, round 5689273891723817293!!!!!

Weight loss is super easy...NOT

Hello, blog world! I've been away for some time now...and I'm back. For good!

Maybe.

The crappy part about this process is knowing that I've really wanted to lose weight since January of 2009 - and here we are, June 2010, and I'm just a few pounds under where I was in 2009. Ummm, that's a lot of wasted time! I could be at goal weight right now!

That sounds amazing.

I wish I could snap my fingers. I know this isn't easy. However, it's certainly not as hard as I convince myself it is sometimes. Other times, it's really just freakin HARD.

So, blah!

That's all I got.

I weighed myself last week, thinking I need to face the damage, and I was at 229 lbs. That's actually not too horrible, so I've been fluctuating from 224 to 230 for the last year or so.

Saturday's are my weigh-in, but I didn't feel good, so I waited until this morning to weigh in. That stomach bug was on my side yesterday - totally looking for the silver lining!

Today, I'm down to 225 lbs.

This week I'm going to work on some basic things. I'm going to take some small steps.

School is done for my kid for the summer. The softball team I coach is done for the season. I have time to focus on me.

So, here we go.

Again.

Blah!

I'm still here!

Still here. Getting back into the swing of things.

I'm adopting a new attitude. I'm learning how to love myself just the way I am. Yes, I want to get healthy. Yes, I want to lose weight. But while I'm doing all that? I'm going to love myself.

It's amazing how the power of positive thinking changes things! I'm no longer staring at myself and critiquing everything and feeling sorry and ugly and fat. I really don't feel that way. I do feel beautiful! My husband loves me and tells me I'm beautiful constantly. I don't think he makes that up!

But for me, to be healthy, I'm going to do this. Because I love myself, I'm going to do this.

Today, I did a Walk Away the Pounds with Leslie Sansone video - 30 minutes, 2 miles. It is a great start.

Tomorrow's goals: 30 minutes of workout and 20oz of water.

Game time, people, it is game time!

Weigh In #3 - posted late

I did my weigh-in last Saturday. I had a semi-good week last week, but really only at the beginning of the week.

Previous weight: 225

Current weight: 224.5

This next weigh-in is in two days, and will be scary.

I shouldn't be scared of weigh-in days.

I've missed a few days...

The problem I've come across in my journey is how to adjust when life throws curveballs.

My youngest brother was in the pediatric intensive care unit this week.

One of my twin brothers, who I haven't seen in almost two years, was able to take leave from the Marines for a few days to be with our family.

The other of my twin brothers is stuck in Texas, far, far away.

My days have consisted of driving to and from the hospital, 40 minutes away, bringing clothes and books and other goodies. I've gone to my mom's house at least twice a day to check on my grandma and to feed the dog and cats. My meals have consisted of fast food in the car as I had no time to stop at home and make anything.

I wonder if I was further along in this journey would I be able to have a better handle on things when the unexpected occurs?

My youngest brother came home from the hospital today. Thank God, the prayers worked! My other brother will be going back to his base on Monday. Life is slowing down and returning to normal. That means I need to get back in the swing of things.

Day 15 - Back to blogging!

I really feel that keeping this blog updated is helpful in my journey. So, now that I'm caught up, let's talk about today!

FOOD: MUCH better than yesterday. Yesterday was crap. SERIOUS CRAP. Today, much better. I'm debating starting to log on here exactly what I'm eating. We shall see if that evolves!

WATER: None. Read tomorrow for a new water update!

EXERCISE: Tomorrow is my weigh-in day, so I wanted to make sure I got in a workout tonight. I'm pretty tired, and the idea of a hardcore cardio workout was pretty scary. So I opted to do the 2 mile Walk Away the Pounds video. WOW. SO much more intense than the 1 mile! Then I finished up with the 10 minute ab video, which was equally as intense. We will see what tomorrow brings!

OVERALL: Not bad. The fact that I've made it 15 days is pretty impressive. I know I can pick this up and kick it in gear!

Nervous about the weigh-in...

Day 14 - Two week mark!

How did I celebrate the two week mark?

BY DOING NOTHING.

Crap.